sub space griffith. sub space griffith. please help me.
idk but i’m feeling this
mb bc he’s the kind of intense character w/ so much going on in his head and so much self control that the contrast just makes it like, extra good?
YEA thats it. its such a sharp detour from his usually headspace i imagine and probably very hard to achieve but like if he gets there, its good
andguts would love it ofc bc he loves seeing how much trust griffith has in him to let himself go like that. its so different from the griffith who walks around with a straight back and tense shoulders, who obviously has a million different things on his mind, carrying the burden of overthinking around like a sack of bricks lol
even not fully going the bdsm route guts would love to help griffith relax by like, rubbing his shoulders or even feet and calves. once he understand how severely anxious griffith is all the time at least. and then gets to watch him melt back into the cushions at his touch. loves it.
unfortunately i dont have a serp is gay masterpost or anything :”) this is what i pulled together in literally 5 mins tho so like. it MUST be out there if i could skip to two chapters and grab hot panels. this chapter( 275) is the one i grabbed the last two from and all the framing of serpico os Really. Questionable. i mean yeah hes off standing by himself so he cant get a group reaction shot, but. it just feels. More Significant.
plus he’s clearly gay even before he starts crushing on guts
Ding dong Femto is still Griffith but without his humanity, consumed only by his power and ambition which he chose over empathy and his fucking family. He’s not a separate entity, he still did everything he did when he transformed out of an unconscious hatred and violence that was in his soul ( and all souls in berserk) which turned conscious and was all aimed at Casca and primarily Guts. Don’t confuse these facts when looking at my page. He chose to do everything he did the moment he said “I sacrifice.”
I should add onto this that all this being said, Griffith consciously before the eclipse would never have raped Casca. I know a lot of people interpret the scene in the caravan as him trying to forcefully take her but here I choose to acknowledge it as a power play to gauge if Casca would reciprocate affection still like she would have in the past ( him knowing her feelings for him ), and also to remind her of his helplessness without her( which would mean guts and the hawks as well…). It’s manipulative, it’s awful. But he stopped the moment she refused ( which she did ). He thought it was justified to behave this way because he was mentally ill( and probably had been for a while but that’s another discussion ). Let’s not exclude the fact all his tendons were cut so his ability to move normally is difficult.
However, Griffith had an equal amount of hatred for Guts as love ( and Casca ofc, but remember Miura is a fuck who made her rape mostly man pain – not her suffering ) for leaving him and making him weak and reckless. It transferred over to jealousy when he saw Casca and Guts together, so obviously no longer needing him or clinging to his dream. So what I’m saying is he chose not to act on his hatred when they rescued him ( ex. Holding guts hand, letting the flowers go, rising up when they were being attacked by wyald, etc ) and instead embraced his humanity, but Femto as a more controlled version of Griffith stripped him of that ability and let that violence and hatred in him seep forward and manifest into the act which took place during the eclipse when he was reborn.
Griffith was fragile, mentally and physically, but like all humans in berserk, there was an unconscious darkness repressed inside him. For Guts, it is the hell hound manifested, for Griffith it is Femto made real. Femto is Griffith, but Femto is not the man Griffith was before. He was no more evil than Guts or Casca or anyone in the Golden Age arc. I could go on about this but I just wanted to be clear about Griffith’s differences pre-eclipse ( empathy ) and reborn as Femto ( power ).
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