@freewilllife I’m c/ping this bc that post is really long to reblog imo lol

I half-wonder if this is an issue with Miura writing some of Berserk
while depressed lol, considering how utterly cynical the Conviction arc
is.

I think this is the case.Depending on the real life issues of the author…and yes I think it somehow is fitting…

Because
sometimes a relationship even an unequal one is better than being
alone, however it can turn out worse if the dependent state doesn´t
develop…

Somehow I think ( I know what a thought…most
Griffith/Guts fans do know that I suppose) that Griffith and Guts had a
dependency on each other that could have turned into a nice
relationship, but fate and their own insufficient communication skills
prevented it.

Guts wished to be the equal of Griffith…he
wished to acquire it…The way he chose was…It would have not been bad if
he had somehow come to another realisation than committing murder is his
“dream” ( That is just my priority maybe?).

Casca on the other
hand wished to maintain an unequal relationship at all cost…she wished
to be near Griffith, later Guts. It is depicted as if Casca only wished
to be Griffith´s sword since she wished to stay in his shadow…Whereas
Guts wished to obtain an own dream in order to be his equal…

Yeah there’s something to be said for Guts and Casca’s (and Charlotte’s) respective reactions to hearing Griffith’s dream speech. Even if it was a stupid speech and Guts’ decision was misguided, he’s still the only one who was like, well I’d better go out and achieve something so I can be his bff.

And it’s also very telling that Guts invited Casca along on his dream adventure – it shows that Guts is not thinking of her as an equal, he’s thinking of her as support for him, the way she was support for Griffith, rather than someone who could achieve her own dream and become an equal w/ him and Griffith.

(This probably says more about how Miura sees romantic (het) relationships as opposed to All-Important Bonds Between Men, but yk.)

Like imo the whole notion of dreams + equals is stupid as fuck, but it’s what Guts is basing his life around at that point and Casca just doesn’t figure in as a potential equal as far as he’s concerned.

Also of course I completely agree that Guts and Griffith’s relationship could’ve been exactly what they both needed, and could’ve been (and was for a time) a hugely positive influence on both of them, but fate and their own issues interfered and ruined it. Like I don’t think they were ever not equals – regardless of their stupid arbitrary standards, their feelings for each other made them equals, and I s2g the water fight is symbolic of that fact.

Like, not literally but symbolically, Griffith won the first fight, Guts won the second – the waterfight. So when Guts won a third – the second duel – it fucked up the balance and resulted in Griffith losing everything, and demonstrated that Guts was leaving based on a false premise.

(also lmao yeah the dream Guts landed on is kind of hilarious in how terrible it is. i love that you describe it as ‘committing murder’ bc it’s not exactly far off)

freewilllife
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In a way it shows that the mangaka is not able to imagine that there are women who don t consider it a true sacrifice if there aren t “feminine” and soft. Like I have barely seen a woman who is able to perform that “trick” 100 % of her time anyway.

yeah pretty much. it wouldn’t even bother me much if Miura didn’t keep framing Casca’s more feminine traits as a prelude to romance/establishing her as an acceptable love interest, while also having her ask for reassurance that she’s feminine enough for Guts multiple times. Like, there’s nothing inherently wrong with writing a woman who has a combination of masculine and feminine traits, or even writing a woman who’s insecure about not being as feminine as other women, but lol I hate how Miura went about it.

also hey if femininity is a prerequisite for being guts’ love interest there’s no need to awkwardly feminize casca when griffith is right there being described as “prettier than me, and I’m a woman”/”so pretty i could hardly tell he was a man”/etc js lol

What I personally don t understand is that Casca was the reason for Guts to “hate” Griffith, so she should be an important irreplaceable person to him. On the other hand he abandoned her for 3 years and sexually assaulted her….How do this things fit together?

hahahaha… ha

true answer: miura is a misogynist hack who doesn’t really gaf about casca, and needed to get rid of her for a while because he hadn’t invented her yet while writing the black swordsman arc, and is less than concerned about whether guts even comes across as someone who genuinely cares for her.

meta answer:

whyever Miura decided to go that route, Guts’ actions after the Eclipse seem like a pretty strong indication that he wasn’t as angry on behalf of Casca as he was about Griffith transforming into a monster and destroying everything he values. Casca became a symbol of everything he lost – the good old days with the Hawks and Griffith – rather than seeing her as a person in her own right.

And to take that a step further, remember, Guts’ pre-Eclipse revelation was that he broke Griffith’s heart when he left, and therefore he already had what he tried attaining by leaving. The Eclipse wipes that away. Whatever Griffith has become does not (apparently) love or value Guts, and is not Guts’ equal or friend.

and this fucks Guts up

Femto raping Casca was proof that he has fundamentally changed into a monster who looks down on Guts, and Guts does drastic things when someone he loves looks down on him, thanks to his giant collection of daddy issues. Like leaving the woman he supposedly cares for in a cave and going on a self-destructive monster hunting spree.

For a start I am actually sorry to use the ask option so many times, there is a thing I want to get rid of: Somehow it seems that Casca is back at the start. At the beginning, before she met Griffith the length of her hair must have been around the same. She felt weak and used the sword as a form of empowerment going so far as wishing to become a sword for Griffith. Then Griffith” destroyed that by the rape. Casca somehow regressed to the state of a child until she regained her sanity again.

Asks are great, no worries!

And yeah ia the long hair does seem like a good visual indication of her regression to a point in her life before she was empowered.

I wonder if/how this will figure into things now that she has her sanity back.

I hope that Casca feels next to the pain she had suffered also the warmth of the people surrounding here. Escpecially Farnese. At least I thought that when people wondered, why she didn t freak out right away…Maybe because since she still remembers the events after the eclipse, she is also able to integrate her “nightmarish memories” in the whole picture? Though there is a high chance that she still has to figure out, what she wishes to do with the resto f her life.

cut for leaked 355 page spoilers tho yk, beware the ask too, hope you have these tags blacklisted, etc

Honestly I’m not sure what to think based on that leaked page. Since last chapter had the ominous heart covered in thorns going on and now we’ve got Casca thanking Farnese and Schierke for taking care of her I’m feeling like yeah maybe you’ve got the right idea and maybe thanks to Farnese being awesome and caring for her Casca is already well on the road to dealing with everything?

tbh I am absolutely full of mixed feelings about this potential outcome lol, so I guess I’ll just wait til we have the whole chapter before I make any judgement calls. If the focus stays on Farnese helping Casca and Guts gets nothing this could be good. But I mean, just based on one page it’s impossible to tell whether those thorns are going to make themselves known in some other way. Guess we’ll wait and see.

When can we expect your new posts about Griffith? I am already excited and look at your blog everyday if it is already up…No pressure. Just a question.^^

well i’m flaky and can’t guarantee anything, but the last part is coming together. i said i’d finished it a while ago and just needed to edit it, but that wasn’t taking into account the fact that my “finished” fourth part was barely more than an outline lol 😡 ugh @ past me. i’d say a week or less, to give myself enough leeway to procrastinate more lol. i could probably finish it in an evening, but yk, it’s hard to predict when the next time i’ll feel like spending an evening writing it will be. And I work tonight so 😡 again.

i’m glad you’re excited for it! hopefully it’ll be worth the wait 🙂