ok but imagine Black Swordsman Casca AU with possessed Farnese trying to seduce her

oh believe me I have

(god black swordsman casca/farnese is peak. farnese all fucked up by religion and weird sadomasochistic self-loathing and black and white thinking and casca super cynical and instantly done with farnese’s spoiled rich kid thing. their meet-cute is farnese capturing casca followed by this possession scene.  like ugh it could be so good and complex and hot.)

also check out the best edit ever:

https://farnesca.tumblr.com/post/165907944023/remember-that-casca-as-protagonist-au-i-sure-do

are your going to read the flame dragon knight novel translation that dark horse is going to release? also i read that they’re going to announce a new berserk project on the same day volume 40 comes out (28th september), what do you think it’s going to be?

yeah i plan to. everything i’ve heard about it makes it actually sound pretty good tbh, like it seems like it incorporates a lot of the kinds of things i enjoy in berserk. and making an apostle the protagonist of a spinoff story is an a+ concept in general.

but i haven’t heard anything about that announcement so i have no idea. I don’t really keep up with berserk related news lol, but hey if anyone else has an idea plz chime in.

hey. have you ever read/watched devilman? I’ve watched devilman crybaby recently and I couldn’t stop thinking about berserk. probably because berserk was inspired by devilman. and I couldn’t stop thinking about griffith and guts and their relationship so I searched and I found your tumblr and your amazing meta. and I’m starting to ship griff and guts. I really can’t stop imagining griffith confessing to guts in the end of berserk like ryo confessing to akira in the last episode of deviman.

Yeah I like Devilman a lot tbh, I’ve seen the first two ovas, crybaby, and read the manga, the sequel, and a few spinoffs. You can definitely see a lot of inspiration for griffguts in ryokira lol, and I love both ships so it’s cool to see ppl checking out one because of the other.

Also yeah honestly a devilmanesque ending for berserk (yk with the whole passionate breakdown) would be so good, I’m with you there.

Yk it’s kinda funny how much guts fanboys hate griffith. You can’t even mention him in a casual/joking manner or post a nice picture of him that they have to comment how much they hate him. There’s something desperate in the way they try to paint him as an utterly evil psycopath and guts has having nothing but hatred for him despite all evidence to the contrary. Also they seem to get off the idea of guts killing griffith (smth they have in common w/ guts at least lmao). Theyre just stupid funny

Honestly I really don’t get it. When I hate a character I just like, don’t reblog stuff about them just to say ‘i want them to die’ or w/e. You’ll notice there’s not a whole lot of isidro content on my blog for instance lol. like I don’t reblog pics of him to say he sucks, and the urge other people have to do that w/ Griffith is honestly bizarre to me. I mean if you hate him because of the Eclipse rape, then… why do you want pictures and fanart of him on your blog.

I feel like for some people at least it’s due to fear that other people are going to treat them the way they treat Griffith fans lol and call them out if they don’t pre-emptively mention how much they really truly hate him every time his name comes up.

Also maybe sometimes there’s an aspect of like, genuine concern over how Miura has been depicting him as the protagonist of his own narrative rather than a flat-out antagonist, and depicting Guts’ residual mixed feelings and “longing” for him, etc, and they’re overcompensating because they feel like the canon isn’t condemning him hard enough.

But idk I’m sure there are a hundred varied reasons people have for doing what they do lol, and idk I don’t want to blanket judge. Like I always say that there are good reasons to have a visceral dislike of him lol. But I wish they’d keep it to their own original posts instead of reblogging other people’s stuff just to be negative, like ngl it’s the number one reason why I rarely post Griffith related things in the Berserk tag.

hey! i was marvelling at your guts meta again, because your metas are incredibly well-written. i wanted to ask, do you think guts is aware of his attraction to griffith? like not only saying ‘he’s beautiful’ but seeing him sexually — both in the past and present. because even after everything, the beast of darkness is taunting him with sexually charged words and i can’t help but wonder whether guts realizes that he is doing that or not. maybe he represses this? idk i’d love to hear ur thoughts!

That is so nice to hear, thank you, I’m glad you think so!

This is more headcanon territory than meta but here’s what I think:

tbh…
pre-NeoGriffith, I’d say no. I think Guts had pretty thoroughly
repressed his attraction to Griffith during the Golden Age. He’s got
sexual hangups in general, and with men in particular, and if he thinks
about Griffith naked more often than the average dude then it’s just
because he’s remembering how awesome and awe-inspiring he is, ofc. His
heart’s getting fluttery cause Griffith’s just so cool and dazzling. He
wants Griffith to look at him because he just wants totally platonic
attention.

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I
mean lbr during the Golden Age Guts has been doing this for three
years, yk, the crush thing where he’s staring at him from afar, or
watching the door every time he’s in a room where other Hawks may be as
well, hoping Griffith shows up and comes to sit by him. but because of
heteronormativity and his sexual trauma he’s unable to translate
those feelings into attraction.

like to get a little graphically
detailed for a sec, I tend to imagine that when Guts jerks off during
this period his mind is generally blank or he’s just thinking about
mundane things and focusing mainly on the physical sensation. if naked
Griffith shows up now and then, it’s just cause his mind’s wandering
aimlessly, nothing to worry about.

I think if he had another
couple days with post-torture Griffith he would’ve started to re-examine
this period of his life and realize what they could’ve had. He got
through the revelations that Griffith isn’t a god, and Griffith has
extremely intense life-destroying feelings for him. Like, recognizing
the nature of his own feelings was the next logical step there.

You could maybe even argue that having sex with Casca might’ve helped
that along, giving him a positive association with sex to draw on, like a
stepping stone.

And I am definitely reading into things here, but yk, that’s what I do lol, so consider:

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You
are having a breakdown because you overheard Casca tell me to leave. It
has finally really truly hit me that I broke your heart when I left.
This is an extreme example of the emotions between us. How do I act on
those emotions? It’ll come to me… come on… there’s got to be some way to
translate these intense emotions into a positive course of action here…

But yk instead the Eclipse happened.

So he spends the next 2 years thinking of Griffith either like this:

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or like this

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And sexual attraction is pretty much out of his mind for a while.

But then NeoGriffith shows up and Guts practically has a sexual awakening.

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(i will never in my life get tired of posting this page)

After
the Hill of Swords, it’s honestly really really easy for me to read
between the lines and basically assume that Guts is jerking off to
Griffith after waking up from sex dreams about him semi-regularly, then
killing ghosts with extra vehemence bc he’s feeling weird and guilty and
lonely.

I mean

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You’re
right, the Beast of Darkness gets really, really suggestive. It’s hard
at this point to argue that Guts would be completely unaware of his
feelings.

His subconscious is here calling Griffith more precious
than Casca, mocking him for “longing” for him, using very loaded romantic phrasing, etc etc, and Guts is
having a conversation with that part of himself, so he’s got to be
aware.

But what I could see is Guts associating that
attraction with his ~inner darkness~ and trying to ignore it.
Considering that “forgot my urge to kill” bit (and yk the whole Golden
Age) I’d ofc argue that his attraction is far from intrinsic to his
inner darkness, but yk, the BoD is using it to tempt him to go chase
down and kill Griffith here, and it’s probably safe to assume that some
if not all of his fantasies are violent, considering. He’d probably
prefer those too, because non-violent fantasies make him sad and
regretful and lonely when he much prefers to feel rage.

So
like basically he’s twisting his sexual feelings into violence to make
them easier to deal with the way he does with all his other feelings,
lumps them in with revenge as his bad “obsession” he’s trying to let go
of, and tries to ignore them.

But it’s never going to completely
work because the core of those feelings is still real love and longing
for human Griffith. That true light he wants to crush.

Ooh
also you can say that this is another reason he’s so determined to force
Casca’s sanity back – surely if he’s got a girlfriend those
inconvenient feelings will go away. (After all, he managed to distract
himself from Griffith by having sex with her last time.)

ANYWAY
like I said this is all headcanon lol. I think it fits with what we see
in the story, but yk, it’s just one possibility of where Guts’ mind
might be at.

In regards to the wagon scene: I personally have always seen Casca as being a trans dude, and Griffith, a gay man, knowing about that on some level. So when I look at the wagon scene, I see Griffith weaponizing his sexual orientation and basically trying to give Casca the validation they want in order to make them want to stay. If Casca is a cis woman it still holds up as crush validation. Opinions?

As a cis woman my opinion is not all that valuable here lol, and it’s under a cut because reading that opinion should probably be an opt-in experience and easy to scroll past

Basically I think that’s a legit and interesting take, though maybe not entirely compatible with canon. Not because Casca couldn’t be trans – I could definitely see that and I think it’s a logical reading of the character – but more because like, if Griffith knew and acted on that knowledge it would change the subsequent nightmare sequence w/ Casca as a housewife.

Also like if there’s an aspect there of Griffith knowing on some level
that Casca’s a man but deliberately withholding that “validation” until
this point when he needs something from him (idk if that was what you
meant to imply but the word ‘weaponizing’ makes me wonder) then I do
disagree with that.

But there’s no reason to assume Griffith was deliberately misgendering him either if his knowledge is subconscious and/or more recently acquired.

(And to be clear on that by misgendering I’m not talking about like Griffith using she/her pronouns bc if this isn’t an AU then Casca has obviously not socially transitioned. I’m more talking about ordering him to sleep with Guts four years ago, or complimenting the dress, things like that.)

Also funnily enough your take is basically the exact opposite of mine in that I emphasize the sense of oppressive heteronormativity and Griffith’s repression in this scene, while you go in the opposite direction with a sense of both characters’ gender and sexuality being validated. But it’s not like my preferred interpretation has anything to do with authorial intent lol, so yours is just as legit and worth consideration.

Plus a nice side effect of losing that undertone of repression is that it makes Griffith’s horror re: a life with Casca even more thoroughly centred around Guts’ absence. Also adds another layer to Casca’s decision not to leave with Guts but to stay with Griffith, if there’s an implicit understanding that he can be himself with Griffith while Guts still regards him as a woman.

Hmm idk if I have much else to say, especially since I’m like, trying to avoid a lot of the inevitable problematic implications inherent to Casca’s narrative, Berserk being what it is. Idk just like reading Griffith as a gay man is rife with issues, reading Casca as a trans man opens up another can of worms, one that I don’t think anyone needs my pov on. But ty for your interest in my thoughts, hope this was the kind of response you were looking for.

what do you think about casca getting her memories back? I like the idea of her joining griffith somehow but that’s probably not going to happen. I just don’t like her to be on guts side without any conflicts.

As far as I’m concerned the only thing worse than Casca like, having healing sex with Guts and being his narrative reward would be Casca joining Griffith, so I’m very much not on board with you there.

But I do agree that I would absolutely love it if Casca ended up as like, a secondary antagonist to Guts. That’s probably my ideal development for her tbh, and I don’t think she needs to join Griffith to conflict with him. They could conflict if Casca wants revenge and Guts has mixed feelings about that for a multitude of reasons, they could conflict if Casca just lashes tf out because it’s time for her to express some serious narrative-shaking rage, they could conflict if Casca goes apostle, they could conflict if Casca wants revenge against Guts too for how he treated her (ok unlikely, but god I wish lol), they could conflict if Casca kills or sacrifices someone in the rpg group or the moonlight boy maybe, etc etc etc.

So basically a big giant NO to Casca joining Griffith, but a big giant YES to Casca and Guts becoming enemies.

Serpico and even at times Farnese treats Casca as Farnese confidence booster. Like she gives Farnese purpose or doesn’t make her feel useless. Do you think we should be more critical about their behavior or am I overreacting?

I doubt very much Miura intended for the reader to be critical of their behaviour, but honestly so much surrounding post-Eclipse Casca skeeves me out wrt ableism and the way she’s so infantalized and objectified (like literally, treated as an unthinking object to be protected rather than a person), both by other characters and by the narrative itself, that I def don’t think you’re overreacting.

It’s something I blame Miura for more than Farnese bc I really don’t think we’re intended to see her as insensitive. and imo Farnese comes across better than anyone else when it comes to treating Casca as a person with feelings. like eg the scene where she loses her temper and then apologizes to her directly – as opposed to say, Guts, who yelled at her all the time back when he interacted with her but never apologized to her. Or as opposed to the rest of the rpg group who tend to treat her like a prop or an extension of Guts or Farnese imo.

But yeah imo there are still a lot of instances of people, including Farnese, talking about Casca and thinking about Casca as if her only value is to motivate Farnese, and the narrative doesn’t really condemn that line of thinking, it’s just part of the general portrayal of post-Eclipse Casca, and it sucks.

miura himself in an interview: there are no 100% good or evil characters/allies or enemies in berserk. from griffith and his followers’ pov guts is the villain griffith is attractive and the world order he offers is the ideal. classic berserk fans™: *crickets* griffith fans: *say more or less the same thing* classic berserk fans™: HOW DARE YOU, YOU DIRTY RAPE APOLOGISTS. HOW DARE YOU SAY GRIFFITH DID NOTHING WRONG. FUCK YOU. *proceed to make up lame excuses for every bad thing guts has done*

lol i wonder if ppl twist the statement that he’s writing Berserk without including the values of good and evil/clearly defined ally and enemy characters to just mean the same thing as the typical “griffith looks nice but he’s pure evil and his allies are fooled by him, guts looks mean but he’s secretly a hero” bs

or they think Miura was just talking about like, silat lol.

for the is berserk homophobic thing. a saw someone describe griffiths storyline as ‘it makes the readers unable to sympathize with the gay-coded character who experiences every pain a human being can experience’

I actually never considered it quite like that before but ia, that’s also a big problem and another reason the Eclipse rape is a failure of writing. Especially considering how Femto’s particular villainy emphasizes/is an expression of some of that gay-coding. And a result of it too for that matter – he makes the sacrifice because of his feelings for Guts. And yeah you can interpret that as “he should’ve embraced those feelings and not tried to escape them,” but the fact remains that his extremely homoerotic feelings basically drove him to evil lol.

So yeah as well as readers not being able to sympathize with him, it makes his feelings for Guts kind of forboding. Which tbh is the kind of thing that wouldn’t bother me at all if there was like, any positive + textually gay content to mitigate it lol, like I’m not going to pretend I don’t fucking love that Griffith makes the sacrifice to escape his feelings and talk about how amazing his narrative is every day, but yk, in the context of the rest of the predatory gay content of the story it’s not something I’d praise from this particular angle.

do you think that berserk is homophobic?

yeah absolutely. ignoring every ounce of subtext, the only characters who demonstrate textual same sex attraction are child predators and groups of heretics having hedonistic and like fuckin baby eating orgies before dying horribly.

As for the subtext, I like to interpret it in as positive a way as possible (ie Guts and Griffith’s relationship and lives are totally fucked up because they fail to recognize and act on the attraction between them, largely because of their past traumas), but as much as I think it fits the story perfectly and is the neatest and most resonant reading of Guts and Griffith’s relationship, it’s still only subtext, and possibly accidental, so that doesn’t really mitigate any of the actual homophobia inherent to the story.

And then ofc you have the evil gay subtext, yk like Femto staring at Guts during the Eclipse rape and the Beast of Darkness talking about Guts’ longing for Griffith and Guts assaulting Casca to feel closer to him. Hard to defend that lmao. I mean I can still read it as inoffensively as possible (the negative part comes when they redirect their feelings from each other to a heterosexual outlet, eg) but yk, that’s just me wanting to enjoy the story, that’s not a nuance I’m gonna give Miura credit for.

And also because this is all subtext it’s very nebulous and v open to interpretation.

Like for instance, another less forgiving interpretation of the subtext might be that Miura intended for Griffith and Guts’ relationship to be positive inasmuch as it is platonic, and for the implications of sexual attraction to be something negative that should have been overcome. I feel like that’s a much less valid interpretation, because it’s pretty contradictory overall, but yk there are still some pretty fucked up implications you can pick up in the subtext, and the context of all textual same-sex attraction being evil doesn’t exactly help that.

Oh also I suppose one can argue that in Berserk every expression of sexual desire is negative whether it’s hetero or not, give or take the second half of the gtsca sex scene (and i can still argue it’s negative), and therefore the fact that all textual same-sex desire is evil is more neutral in berserk than it would be in other stories. but we live in a world where predatory heterosexual desire isn’t a damaging stereotype in and of itself but predatory same-sex desire is, so it’s not actually neutral regardless, bc of real world context.

Tho that fact does make Berserk more fun for me to read at least.

At the end of the day basically I choose to read the subtext in as
positive a way as possible and it works for me and entertains me a whole
lot, but that doesn’t make the homophobic implications go away. but enh
I’ve kind of made my peace with enjoying a very offensive work lol.

what do you think of berserk reddit and skullknight. net lol?

very much not my scene lol

i never check the reddit unless i’m linked there (usually for raws/translations) and i try not to read the comments when i do visit. and skull knight just has a generally like, stuffy and unpleasant atmosphere lol. i’ve been known to go there to check translation info, but yeah i have no interest in even lurking to read discussions let alone participating

in general when it comes to fandoms, especially fandoms with tension between different interpretations or ships or whatever, i tend to just find a niche i like and stay there

I’ve noticed that male Berserk fans and female Berserk fans almost always have TOTALLY different interpretations of the story and characters. I think guys (not ALL) tend to view the relationship between Guts/Griffith as strictly platonic, and Guts/Casca as this amazing thing. Meanwhile, girls seem to see all the subtle hints/moments between Guts/Griffith and see that Guts/Casca is kinda crap. I’m curious to see if you have any input on this? Or do you disagree?

As a rough pattern it probably holds true, though I know plenty of exceptions, and there are a lot of women who like gtsca ime. there might even be more women into gtsca than there are griffguts fans, though i’m v sure there’s a higher concentration of women on the griffguts side of things.

i feel like there are a million thinkpieces on the internet about why women are into THIS part of fandom while men are into THIS part of fandom lol, and idk if I have any valuable input myself on that. yk, like women are into transformative fandom (fic) while men are into the collecting side of fandom (which includes facts and stats and stuff not just collectibles), or like women are into slash because of [insert one of a million different explanations i’ve seen], yadda yadda yadda. 

it’s always worth exploring possibilities, but i also kind of dislike theorizing that tries to explain demographic splits in fandom with one or two neat little theories lol, like all people into X fictional thing have Y trait but all people into this other fictional thing have Z trait.

I mean whatever demographic split there is could be nothing more than the fact that most men into berserk are straight and therefore less likely to enjoy the very gay elements of the story, while women may be more evenly divided between the two ships because of differing taste/ship preferences/dedication to explicit canon/irl politics lol/whether the Eclipse ruined Griffith as a character for them/ability and desire to pick up on subtext/ability and desire to compartmentalize away misogyny/etc etc etc.

So idk I guess basically I don’t disagree but I also don’t think I have anything worth adding.

hi I really like your blog and I find your analysis interesting even though I don’t ship griffith and guts but you have made me see their relationship in a different way. I have a question. what do you think of the demon child within griffith? do you think he is the reason why griffith still has feeling for guts(and casca?)or is griffith trying to blame the child for his feelings like the time with charlotte when he denied his friendship with guts?also what do you think about moonchild?

Thank you! I’m glad you found something to enjoy in my meta despite different ship preferences, esp since I like to think a lot of what I have to say about them is applicable even if you go the platonic friends route in your interpretation.

When it comes to NGriff’s unfrozen heart, I definitely go with option B. I completely believe Griffith was lying to himself about his feelings, as he is wont to do lol, like you said – definitely related to his “take all the sad and frightening things and cast them into the fire” method of dealing with his feelings, ie pretending they don’t exist.

I’m going to link a previous post on this topic bc I feel like I said most of what I have to say about it already. But in short I definitely don’t think the fetus is responsible for Griffith’s heart beating while he watches Guts fight Zodd, though it may be responsible for Griffith saving Casca from falling rocks.

As for the moonlight kid, I’m not sure what to make of him. It’s suggested he’s the soul of Guts and Casca’s kid, what with the family imagery in that one chapter. Conversely it’s suggested he might be associated with Dannan, and therefore possibly taking the form of what that child would look like for the sake of… well I want to suggest manipulating them, bc I have high hopes that Danann is gonna turn out to be shady and using them for her own ends.

I do have a hard time with the popular theory that Moonlight Kid is part of NeoGriffith and like, escapes during the full moon to hang out with the rpg group bc the idea sounds very silly to me.

And on a personal level I hate him lmao. I just… I hate most cutesy fictional children, I vastly prefer Black Swordsman Guts to family man Guts lol, I don’t like that the kid’s role is to prevent Guts from succumbing to the armour because I want Guts to succumb to the armour, at least for long enough to shake things up and have consequences. I don’t like that Casca has strong maternal feelings for him despite not even having a personality right now, bc it’s so gender essentialist. Not in a surprising way, just in an annoying way. I don’t like the way he’s used to tease the audience about the possibility of Guts eventually settling down with a family. And I don’t like the implication that he briefly like, possessed NeoGriffith to make him save Casca lol, because again, it strikes me as really silly.

My biggest hope and dream involving Moonlight Boy is that he’s either a) secretly bad news because he’s a trick of Danann’s, or b) going to be what Casca sacrifices to become an apostle if she opens the behelit.

I remember reading Berserk for the first time and being totally unimpressed with Guts n Casca’s relationship. Then I really entered the fandom and it turns out a lot of people really like them together??? I thought “Did you guys read the same manga as me?” Lmao. I’m never gonna forgive Miura for forcing that shit into the story

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I don’t think you’re the same person but I’m combining these asks into one post because it’s basically the same subject and sentiment lol

honestly yeah the relationship really just brings out the worst in both characters imo (rampant misogyny and general laddish unlikeability in Guts; dependency, victimization, and narrative passivity in Casca), and it seems so, so unnecessary to me.

Like they are the epitome of pasted on romance. The relationship that drives the narrative, provides the most tension and intrigue and character development is Guts and Griffith’s. Guts and Casca’s romance drives nothing, develops nothing, and the intrigue and tension comes from… how Griffith figures into it (eg as the person they’re both rebounding from, as the object of their early rivalry, as the person Guts is trying to get over post-Eclipse by focusing on Casca. like literally every single one of their scenes where they grow closer is a conversation about Griffith lol).

Plus Guts rescuing her and then escorting her to Elfhelm is not dependent on his romantic relationship with her at all – he’d do the same for any of his former comrades. She could be replaced with Gaston and absolutely zero things would change except Guts probably wouldn’t’ve sexually assaulted him.

The romance brings nothing unique to the characters, it adds nothing, all it does is diminish everyone involved, extremely literally in the case of Miura adding it so he could write Casca out of half the story in the most grotesque way possible and give Guts motivation he absolutely didn’t need and which diminishes his actual personal trauma which is what should’ve been motivating him.

It’s so frustrating! I swear I could write another 4 part essay about all the ways Guts and Casca’s romance actively makes Berserk objectively (yes i’m saying objectively, idgaf some things are universally bad regardless of personal taste, like most things to do with the Eclipse) worse lmao

And the thought of an AU where Casca also survived the Eclipse without the bullshit and got her own plot-driving complementary storyline as an active character with a goal is so depressing because it could’ve been amazing.

How do you think the overall fan base would react if Miura decided to just say “fuck it” and make Guts x Griffith canon lmao do you think there’d be an uproar?

a whooooooole lot of ragequitting and calling miura a sjw-pandering hack/evil fetishizing homophobe/rape apologist on one side of the fandom, wild celebration on the other side

might depend how it goes canon too lol. like, guts and neogriffith improbably living happily ever after somehow? definitely the above

guts and griffith admitting to themselves and/or each other that they were/are still in love before one or both die in the final confrontation? i could see the majority of the berserk fandom hmphing and going “ugh fine” (or insisting it’s still platonic love or that he still loved casca more) instead of ragequitting or hating miura.

and probably a combination of the two if there was a kiss or something to demonstrate the non-platonicness of it lol

The fact that ppl view gtsca as this epic love story truly baffles me. Nvmd that he’s treated her like shit, miura admittedly shoehorned it into the story to give guts more manpain. It has like 3 chapters of forced build-up (judeau lit had to push them together) and it’s implied that they’re both using e/o as an alternative to griffith. And indeed, as soon he reenters the picture, it starts to fall apart. And it lasted like, what, one week? But sure, they’re totally the loves of e/o’s lives lol

four days actually lol

but yeah, strong agree here. I do kind of wonder what Miura wanted to portray – like I definitely think it very much comes across in the story that he added their relationship entirely for the sake of fridging Casca to motivate Guts more (the fact that he admitted it is icing on the cake lol). But he also didn’t shove it in as a badly written last-minute true love story, he was very deliberate in showing that there were flaws there from the start, like Judeau pulling the strings, both rebounding from Griffith, both using sex as a distraction from their negative feelings, the jealousy during the rescue mission, Griffith still taking priority to Guts (and this holds true until after the Hill of Swords confrontation), Casca becoming Guts’ “sword,” their hookup helping enable Guts’ denial so he doesn’t realize he shouldn’t’ve left the Hawks until it’s too late, etc.

So idk bc to elicit the correct reaction from his readers during the Eclipse he had to make them invested in their relationship and Guts’ feelings for Casca, but he also doesn’t do a damn thing to make Guts feelings for Casca matter or affect his decisions or anything. So imo it ends up feeling awkwardly pasted on when we’re supposed to believe they have strong feelings for each other, and the rest of the time it feels deliberately portrayed as negative.

(Like I’ve pointed out before, but a good example of this is the way Guts decides he screwed up before and wants to stay with Griffith this time while talking with Judeau, before consulting with Casca. It would’ve been so easy to have him decide while talking to Casca, showing that what she chooses to do also affects his decision, but nope. Too bad for Casca if she really wanted to leave with Guts, Guts is sticking with Griffith now.)

Re: griffith’s torture chamber monologue do you happen to know what’s the original japanese word they translated as “hunger”? I wonder if it has any particular connotation in japanese

chaoticgaygriffith:

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I do not, but this is a good question and one I’m also curious about. I can say that the anime replaced it with “love” (whether the word itself changed or the translation, idk) so it wouldn’t surprise me if it sounds just as suggestive in japanese as in english, or more so.

@chaoticgaygriffith no pressure to answer this, but do you have any insight on the word? (i’m sure you know exactly the page we’re talking about but just in case, chapter 49)

And actually while I’m wondering about this I’ve always been curious, is it the same word Ganeshka uses on this page? (chapter 282)

the word used is 飢餓感 (きがかん/kigakan) which can mean either hunger literally or hunger as in a strong desire/wish for something

and seeing as how griffith was listing emotions here, moreso than physical sensations (although some emotions–like pain, or you could say even all of them ig–are at the same time physical sensations), i would argue that he meant the latter

though it’s probably unclear on purpose, or it’s like clever wordplay of sorts since he’s literally in pain and starved and also additionally emotionally in pain and starved

and no sadly it’s not the same word ganishka used (he used 飢え渇く/うえかわく/uekawaku) but i don’t think that means there’s no parallel to be drawn here

tyvm for the response! sounds like it basically has the same connotation of saying you feel hunger while thinking about someone in english.

i def don’t think he meant literal hunger since he’s listing feelings specifically for guts, but i like the idea that it could be deliberate wordplay (along with pain) to yk compare the torture to being without guts/his feelings for guts. which would be very fitting imo.

just finished the movies and bc i love your meta i just wanna say icb they made the waterfall scene to just be guts and casca calmly have sex. the movies only really work to prove how if you leave the entire character development and depth of guts out the series itself changes significantly

thank you! and yeah ikwym, it makes me wonder what people who got into the movies first take away from them characterization-wise.

like obviously griffith is completely different lol, transformed into a two dimensional conniving ambitious dude who happens to be in love with Guts. But also like you mention, how does guts and casca’s relationship come across? I feel like it’d be even more boring, like i consider guts’ flashback to be like the lone highlight of their interactions together, and without that it’s just… so rote. Same w/ the anime on that point actually.

idk i think the ovas are a pretty decent hook to get people into the story, but anyone who stops there instead of reading the manga is seriously missing out.

berserk is just: no confronting or talking about our feelings we repress them like men (until they literally cause the apocalypse)

lol p much. like i’ll argue forever that dreams in berserk are ways to avoid dealing with your feelings and the whole story is about repression due to trauma.

not even in a guts and griffith are attracted to each other but can’t figure it out way, tho it’s so easy to read that as part of it, but repression due to trauma also describes guts’ whole monster hunting campaign post eclipse, the way behelits and turning into monsters work, and imo like 90% of guts, griffith, and casca’s characters in general. and farnese, at least pre-guts. and serpico.

Re: griffith’s torture chamber monologue do you happen to know what’s the original japanese word they translated as “hunger”? I wonder if it has any particular connotation in japanese

I do not, but this is a good question and one I’m also curious about. I can say that the anime replaced it with “love” (whether the word itself changed or the translation, idk) so it wouldn’t surprise me if it sounds just as suggestive in japanese as in english, or more so.

@chaoticgaygriffith no pressure to answer this, but do you have any insight on the word? (i’m sure you know exactly the page we’re talking about but just in case, chapter 49)

And actually while I’m wondering about this I’ve always been curious, is it the same word Ganeshka uses on this page? (chapter 282)

I have never seen or read berzerk. I somehow came across your grifguts analysis and decided to read it, despite having no context for it . The first part was so interesting and compelling that I have decided to start the series, and then finish your analysis when I’m caught up. Thank you for that high quality meta

oh wow this is so cool to hear, i’m so glad something i wrote could motivate someone to get into this story! thank you for letting me know 😀

But also before you read too far please let me know if you have any triggers or just want to be warned for any types of dark (and sometimes offensive tbh) content in general, because Berserk seriously has it all, and as much as I still love the story I’d hate for anyone go in and be blindsided by some of it. I’d be happy to give you a rundown if you want to be forewarned.

Oh and the official translation of the manga is what I’d recommend, there are some pretty dodgy scanlations floating around that aren’t nearly as accurate. Here’s a link if you happen to need one:

http://mangaseeonline.us/read-online/Berserk-chapter-1-page-1.html

oh my god yes that’s my favorite scene too. closely followed by the “only you made my forget my dream” scene. they’re both heartbreakingly beautiful and it amazes me how miura can convey how intense and complicated guts and griffith’s feelings for e/o are w/ so few pages. take the bthump page too or the ones of griffith and guts looking at e/o from afar in ch 278. their relationship truly is the heart of berserk and i can’t wait til they meet again

yesss the moment of the sacrifice probably is my second favourite scene too. and also special mention to guts’ monologue about how he wants griffith to look at him.

and it’s true even those brief meetings/eyes meeting across a plain lol have such a weight to them because of both how miura portrays those scenes and because of their history informing them. like there’s a reason guts keeps thinking about griffith on that hill now even though he was barely a speck on the horizon to him. their connection is just that intense.

it’s so good!

what’s your favorite scene in the whole manga?

I feel like this should probably be a harder question to answer because there are so many amazing scenes, but honestly it’s easy: Griffith’s torture chamber monologue.

It’s the absolute heart of Berserk and it’s everything I could possibly ask for in a ship.

Griffith starting off with the pages on his dream. The brightest thing he’d ever seen. Then darkness. And every single time I turn the page from this

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to this

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it takes my breath away lmao.

It’s a monologue about how Guts holds Griffith’s heart in his hand.

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And like look at this shit!

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The sole sustenance keeping him alive oh my god. Why just him? Why indeed.

And the monologue that begins with showing us the dream Griffith dedicated his entire life to pursuing ends with this:

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I just fucking can’t handle it. This is seven pages of absolute perfection, and these seven pages are what Berserk’s about, both literally and thematically, and that’s why I’m stuck in this fandom no matter how many other aspects of the canon disappoint me lol.

Like, a few of my favourite ship tropes are: love/hate, someone ruining their own life because of love, power dynamic reversal due to desperately intense emotions, someone forced to choose between love and the thing they value most in life, betrayal and obsession/desperate need, two people who are singular to each other, etc and this scene hits every branch on the way down.

how bout you, if you have a favourite scene you want to talk about?

Reading chapter 355 and seeing how the art style in those last panels where guts triggers casca’s bad memories (that close-up of griffith’s tortured body rlly struck me) is so similar to the manga’s old art style makes me wonder if the cutesy art shift was indeed intentional to suit elfhelm’s tone and if it’s gonna shift again now that it seems some dark shit is gonna down again? I certainly hope so cause the new art style isn’t doing it for me. Like at all

yk I also wondered/hoped that. I mean idk the Griffith panel was pretty stand-out in detail and realism compared to the rest, and the tone was fairly dark at times in Casca’s dream but I still wasn’t into the art, so I’m not super hopeful that the style will completely shift back to something more say Golden Age-y or early Millenium Falcon arc.

But the shift from the Millenium Falcon art to the Fantasia art seemed weirdly abrupt to me, so it does give me hope that at least some of the style now is deliberate rather than just natural art shift, and maybe he’ll at least shift styles again to something different and hopefully better lol. I want to believe.

imgur(.)com/a/f0QgmjY / imgur(.)com/a/KFd5zXQ lmao

for ref the pics are guts fantasizing about neogriffith’s ass during the “he looked so human” panel, and gennon being creepy while imagining nearly the same image

and ngl I’ve actually made that connection before somewhere in here

i mean it’s not really to compare guts and gennon lol, more that yk miura knows how to visually illustrate the concept of someone’s physical attraction to griffith and that’s what he’s doing on both those pages l b r here